Ordering Take-out(Private)

when he sat down and curled in on himself, jer knew that something was up. when the tears started, the shifted male crossed over with a low noise, letting him know that he was there, "Ozaki ..." he murmured, moving to press against the male curled up in his wings. he aimed to rest his shoulder against him, if allowed, wanting to comfort the other.

"it's good that you want to be a father for those who didn't have a good childhood, or those who just need the person that you are, to be paternal. a lot of people need it, and it's really amazing that one person who needed it, found you. and you found her. I'm sure you've heard the patronizing talk over and over again, until it becomes the opposite of what the others say." he murmurs, exchanging his shift for his humanoid form. "But it's not your fault. No matter what happened in the past that you might believe to be connected to that tainted source, they are separate events. Because I know that one horrible way of dealing with the guilt, and the belief that it is your fault, is going back through your memory of any events prior and making connections that dont even seem plausible, yet it's so, so much easier to just blame yourself for everything that goes wrong." he tells him, sitting at his side, wanting to hold and comfort the other. maybe ... he could try to touch the other? he didn't know how well it would go, but maybe ... reaching out gently with his hand, he went to gently place it against ozaki's back, between his shoulderblades and wings, along his spine, and to rub lightly if allowed.

"it is not your fault. you were looking out for everyone who needs even a dime of blood to survive, ozaki. and I admire that. I'm sure that she admires it too. you are strong, ozaki, and yes, accidents happen. trust me, they do, all the damn time, and they hurt. you were not responsible for tainting that supply for the hemophages in the academy and under that protection. you are not responsible for what happened when you were under the influence of the tainted blood, and nor was she responsible for what happened. you were both taken advantage of, and the ancient feral and primal natures of those species that you share the DNA of, are to blame for the awakened reaction. But that is not something to hate upon or blame, because it is a part of you, and hating any one part of you more than you love any other part, will sicken you. if you can't find love those parts of yourself, find someone who will love those parts of you with you and for you. but please, don't blame yourself for what happened. whoever tainted it? they're the ones to blame. and if I ever find them, or find out what tainted the reserves, I promise that they wont get away without justice being dealt hard to them." he murmurs, gently rubbing soothing circles if he hadnt moved away.

alright, good, he was relaxing a bit more. keeping his hand in place, gently rubbing in circles over the expanse of available flesh, careful not to agitate the fabric around where his wings were, "that's fine. I know that it can be strange, but thank you for letting me touch you." he murmurs in a gentle noise, observing his wings as he sat at his side, looking for any wounds that he could try his hand at mending. satisfied that he couldn't find any, he also relaxed.

"well, at least it was found out." he sighed, looking at him still covered in his wings. after a second he hummed, "Hmn. Want to bet on if I can find the right nerve to get you to pop those wings open and let a shortie in?" he teased, fingers relaxed against his back, meant for a tease to lighten the situation. "And now, its known to not be used. ozaki, if you want to train the hemophages to control themselves in the presence of others, why don't you use me? you already know that I have polycythemia vera, so I would be a safe training ground. And I want to help those that can't feed as easily without it being from a breathing source. Right now, giving blood for the others like this is all that I can do, but I am willing to be a living source. After all, I've fed a blood devil."

there was no way in hell he was passing up the chance to snuggle, no matter what, especially when both were recalling painful things. scooting in close, he hummed, pleasantly surprised by the other's scent. "Thanks for letting this shortie in." he murmurs, looking at him before smiling softly.

"At least you passed, hon. And everything that follows that challenges you, is part of what makes you a unique being. And yes, everyone has their own fights to become something more than what they are at this moment." he murmurs, leaning in against his shoulder, "Hmmm. Say, after this, let's get some drinks and proper food? even a little sleep. I know that you're likely as tired." he murmured softly, resting his head against the other's shoulder, relaxed enough to get physical.

a pleased noise left him, enjoying the shared closeness with his new companion. "An outreach program sounds really interesting." he notes, comfortable and purring. "A little bit of fun wouldn't be too off, either, I suppose." he grins, referring to the other's thought of the bar.

leaning more into ozaki, he gave a short yawn, automatically nuzzling against his shoulder, "hope they have plants or I'm making my own." he murmurs with a faint grin on his lips. it was good to rest against the ground here, and he could feel the magick within him calming from it's terrible storm. he had his own scars, these ones less visible than others, crossing his chest and shoulders, climbing down his biceps and along his spine. he had once lost control of himself in his feral state, and had the scars of his magick to prove it. the shittiest part was that the damn scars glowed, by creating luminescent algae in the ichor of the fae which could have just as easily have been water for all the body was concerned. yeah, that was fun when he was hunting.

Pressing in close once allowed, he relaxed against the other with a faint purring sound, enjoying their cuddling situation. humming softly as he leaned into him, he chuckled softly as he laid the umbrella down, "Want me to make you thicker canopy, hon?" he asks, relaxed and already using pet names for this new friend of his.

ah, that was his normal thing though. but hmm. would the bar be open? he didnt mind. he would just take some time to craft flowers and plants into his hair before they went. "an elusive lover, huh? well, it's okay if you sleep here, nothing bad will happen." he murmurs, looking around them, well, more with the soles of his feet than actually out from under his wings. ah, veins. so fricking cool. gently, he traced one of the veins in the membrane, entranced as he watched it through the glow his scars gave off. "Mmm. I can set up a nice protective barrier here for us.", he murmurs in thought, yet aloud.

chuckling softly, jer moved to let ozaki rest against him, closing his eyes and flexing his paws against the ground to send the magick up the trees around them and urge them to grow closer together in the upper branches and foliage to make a thick canopy. groaning, he yawned, "You big goof" he murmurs in soft thought and purred loudly, gently taking his human form again, drawing his half cloak from his shoulders and gently eased ozaki's head into his lap with the cloak as a second pillow for him. "There, you'll be safe there." he murmurs warmly, resting his hand gently against Ozaki's chest, protective, as he called upon his abundant magick to create a thorny barrier around them both, protecting them from any nearby dangers, other hand resting palm down on the ground.

He wanted to slumber himself, but no, he shouldnt. he needed to stay awake with ozaki here ... mmm sleep was tempting, especially with someone there.

he was weakened by time spent away from any live plants, from lack of rest under them, and had easily fallen asleep himself, face twitching now and then, pointed ears trembling at times as he dreamt. he would awaken when he sensed ozaki awakening, his voice a low throaty rumble of content as he bent to nuzzle the other automatically, as he would to members of his family grove.

"morning moonbright." he murmurs gently, comfortable with ozaki's head in his lap, able to feel the magick thrumming all around them both, noticing the extra feelings of energy around ozaki before chuckling, "dont move too quickly, or you'll disturb the seedlings in your hair. looks like I became a place for them to pollinate. I'm covered head to toe aren't I? they're attracted to my energy since it's high, and are attempting to grow around us quickly to protect us. they think that my power exploded outward." he mused as he gently slid fingers through ozaki's hair to gather up the seedlings which eagerly rocked against his skin which made him purr even more, "just dont plant yourself in me." he chuckled.