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Face to Face once more (Sharaku)
Rika
Traveler
The Collector
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Yin/Yang
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Deshi
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Sept 20, 2019 17:10:48 GMT -6
Post by Rika on Sept 20, 2019 17:10:48 GMT -6
The school year had flown by in a flash for some and as others climbed the ladder to new heights or left the school in search of new horizons, Rika would find himself still at the school in the same dorm room he had began at. Though a lot had changed over that time. Since that day in the city where he had made quiet a mess of himself and vanished, Rika had been doing a lot of thinking. When he reformed, he had issues with the beast within causing him to loose sleep. He had tried to just deal with the matter on his own. He didn’t want to burden anyone or make his already questionable relationship with his roommate worse, but it just got worse and worse until finally he nearly lost it. In turn response to his own break down, he did the only thing he thought was best for him at that time and that was submitting himself to a hospital.
He didn’t make an announcement of his departure, but just quietly took care of the necessary paper work needed to get himself the time off for his issues. He was gone for a good two months and while he wouldn’t say his path was in anyway easy, it had helped him grow as a person, learn some things about himself, learn about how to deal with people and society better, and in turn learn some control over his emotions and some things that had been holding him back. Was he fully cured? No, but at least he was working on getting better and more confident in his own skin.
Besides when he had returned to school a few weeks ago and began to work double time for all the classes he had missed to catch up, it wasn’t like he came back alone. No during that two month time frame of doctors, medications, and therapists, Rika had found a therapist that was actually a being of surrealism like himself. This woman was more hands on and brutal with her honesty, but at the same time, she was the reason he was on his road to recovery now…and the reason why he had something else to master. Remember that beast inside of him? Well…it was no longer just inside of him. The beast was now a full being with a name….and a creature that belonged to Rika that he had to learn to be the master of.
This was no pet, but rather a thing called a familiar. A creature or being bound to you and that was suppose to serve and protect you, but uh…outside of helping him with becoming separate from the other, his therapist left the whole figuring out how this relationship/partnership thing with a familiar up to him to work out. It was a task he was kind of internally screaming about. It wasn’t that the now separate beast was bad per se. In fact, it was nice to get him out of his body and be free of the constant war that they had in the past. And it was not like the guy caused any real trouble. He just did his own thing. Which was fine, but when it came to working together and getting to know each other? Well that was the current problem.
See between all his studies, he would take time out to spend time with his familiar to try to get to know him or do some practice training to see if he could get him to work with him if a battle occurred, but the whole matter seemed quite pointless. It was a miracle if he could get the other to come over to him when called let alone follow instructions or just talk to him. It was quite frustrating to be honest and he wasn’t quite sure what to do about the matter. He had been dealing with this on his own, keeping his familiar out of the dorm and away from most folks so no one would question him about it, but…honestly. How long could he keep this hidden? …Or for that matter keep trying this alone?
The Nightmare would sigh as he sat on a rock in the training field under the cloak of night. His legs were crossed as he leaned forward with a frown of thought on his face as he stared across the grassy field towards his familiar that was sitting quietly on the opposite side in a relaxed position watching him with unblinking red eyes. The familiar was currently in his human form rather than his dog form, but even so they had spent the last 30 minutes like this. Just staring at each other and making no progress.
While he thankfully didn’t do anything to make his presence known, the familiar was being very stubborn tonight. He wouldn’t come when called and training? Forget it. So here they were staring at each other. What was the deal? What was he doing wrong? The frown deepened as Rika huffed and leaned his head against his left hand as his free hand drummed a bit on his other knee as he thought.
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Sharaku
Administrator
Lord of Logic
GRADE •
A+ (100)
VITALITY •
2
STRENGTH •
5
SPEED •
3
RESILIENCE •
5
STAMINA •
3
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Mirage Manipulation
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Vamp/Were Hybrid
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Tyki
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None of your business~
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Sept 21, 2019 18:03:51 GMT -6
Post by Sharaku on Sept 21, 2019 18:03:51 GMT -6
 The Vamp Wolf  | "...."
Bright golden eyes pierced the darkness of the night as the tall hybrid made his way through the school grounds with a gruff expression on his face. There was nothing he needed to do tonight, but he was feeling far too restless to simply sit down and try to relax, or do any calmer activity of any sort. Thusly, he had resorted to pacing around mostly aimlessly, lost in his own thoughts.
Well, it wasn't like he had anything to look forward to back at his room anyway, even if he went inside to try and sit down. Frankly, he had taken to mostly ignoring his roommate lately, having basically no motivation to pick anything with the guy. It wasn't like the other ever bothered to tell him anything important without having been heavily prodded or broken down first. Disappearing for months without a word and then not explaining much upon coming back was apparently okay too. Well, if that was how it was going to be, did he need to bother keeping in touch with the guy? Clearly the other wasn't thinking about updating him about anything so....
Unluckily for him, he just had to come up against the guy outside instead, didn't he? What was the peace loving fool doing on the training fields anyway? Well, not that he had any way of having a clue right now. That said, he'd choose to pause, and just frown at the scene from a moderate distance, not making his presence openly known.
If he were to get noticed though, the feature standing out on him the most at the moment would be the fact that he had a white bandage wrapped loosely around his whole right arm except his hand and fingers. It looked like he was injured, despite the fact that it was unusual to see someone like him in such a state for more than minutes at a time, given his double mix of self-healing species powers. |
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Rika
Traveler
The Collector
GRADE •
A+
VITALITY •
5
STRENGTH •
2
SPEED •
2
RESILIENCE •
5
STAMINA •
4
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Yin/Yang
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Being of Surrealism
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Deshi
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Sept 22, 2019 6:25:27 GMT -6
Post by Rika on Sept 22, 2019 6:25:27 GMT -6
Rika would continue to sit on the rock contemplating what to do when the other sitting across from him suddenly narrowed his eyes and looked to the side. Finding the behavior strange, he would follow the direction of the gaze and upon spotting what was there feel his stomach twist uncomfortable.
Sharaku…
He and his roommate hadn’t left on the best of grounds before he had left. He was pretty sure that the event at the city had some impact on the guy and probably the issues with sleep and him slowly losing it. He hadn’t really told the other about all that was going on back then and when he had returned, while he did notice a look here and there, he didn’t know how to respond to said looks without a direct question. It wasn’t that he was asking for someone to poke and prod him until he spilled the beans, but to be frank at times it was simply best to be direct with him. Unless the look was an obvious one of curiosity or concern, he wouldn’t have just spilled his heart out in any case. He had returned the looks with questionable looks, but the other never made a move to ask anything, so he figured that maybe the guy was either pissed with him or just didn’t want to know.
And when the ignoring came? He wasn’t sure what to do or how to break the tension there. There was so much going on that he wasn’t sure what was worse at times, but he knew he was getting to the point where he had just about had enough of it all. He didn’t like this and honestly wanted to set some things right. He just hadn’t made the move to do so…and apparently not fast enough if fate had brought Sharaku to him now. It made him wonder if the situation was salvageable though...
He would feel the fear and sadness there, but instead of pushing it away he let the feeling stay right where it was and while he wasn’t sure what was going to come out of his mouth, he would take a breath as he addressed the other.
“Don’t stand there with frown like that,” he would begin to speak calmly enough even though he was highly aware that the situation could potentially go bad. Even more so with his familiar here and considering the location. It all would probably bringing more questions. Even so…even it was uncomfortable, he didn’t run from the situation or his feelings. He would simply face off whatever happened. Speaking of happenings, his eyes would notice the bandages on the other and he would frown lightly at that one.
“Come here. Let me see that arm of yours. Have you been having it rough lately?” his voice held concern there, but not the usual overabundance of it that he had in the past that was always filled with worry. He still cared, but there had been a change somewhere within. Though whether the other would tell him anything with the way he had been behaving or treating him would be left up to fate to decide.
Either way, he would wait to see what the other did as his familiar just watched with a lazy expression before blinking and deciding to lay down on the ground.
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Sharaku
Administrator
Lord of Logic
GRADE •
A+ (100)
VITALITY •
2
STRENGTH •
5
SPEED •
3
RESILIENCE •
5
STAMINA •
3
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Mirage Manipulation
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Vamp/Were Hybrid
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Tyki
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None of your business~
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Sept 23, 2019 4:46:34 GMT -6
Post by Sharaku on Sept 23, 2019 4:46:34 GMT -6
The Vamp Wolf | More than anything else, his eyes would just narrow further, though he would at the very least come somewhat closer to make it easier for them to look at each other. One way or another though, he didn't seem too happy about this. "I can do whatever I want. It's technically none of your concern." He hadn't come here to show off his arm to anyone, and an out of nowhere command to wasn't going to change his mind that easily.
"What do you want?" Frankly, he would have been just fine staying on the sidelines for a while and probably leaving after. He intentionally hadn't come closer at first, as he hadn't made the decision to want to engage at that point. Chances were they'd only argue, and it appeared that the other wasn't even alone right now, which did not make it any better. It seemed like a bad time to be butting in, but guess the guy wasn't thinking of it that way. To be fair though, he often questioned if the guy ever actually thought through his decisions before just rolling with them without a second glance back. Not to say that he didn't take opportunities himself, but he didn't exactly dive into an idea without immediately considering what impact it could or would have. The Nightmare usually gave the vibe that it didn't even occur to him that this or that may not be a good way of thinking or doing. Especially since he was no good at owning his actions properly in the end. |
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Rika
Traveler
The Collector
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A+
VITALITY •
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STRENGTH •
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SPEED •
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4
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Yin/Yang
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Being of Surrealism
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Deshi
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Sept 26, 2019 5:47:02 GMT -6
Post by Rika on Sept 26, 2019 5:47:02 GMT -6
Did he expect a warm reception after what had been occurring as of late between them? No. Did he flinch or become overly sad when the other narrowed his eyes, came over, and said his words? No. Did he become depress when he smelled the bitter energy coming off the other? Well he did feel sad inwardly that it was there, but instead of beating himself up about probably being the cause of said energy, he instead took it all in surprisingly calmly as he gave the other a soft somewhat sad smile. “Yes. It has always been that way, hasn’t it?” His response was soft and surprisingly calm as he watched the other with consideration for a moment. He knew the other wasn’t happy about the matter…He kind of knew that for a while now….
“Heh. Right to the point. Fair enough,” the Nightmare would begin as he unfolded his legs and let his feet touch the ground as he sat on the rock. He’d take a moment to gather his thoughts before opening his mouth and speaking. “I wanted to talk to you on leveled grounds and honestly about what has happened and has been happening as of late between us,” he would look up at the other. “I know this is a private matter and you might even be curious about the third party here; however, he is just as much part of this issue as you and I.” He would paused to take in a breath before continuing. “I know our previous encounters have not been the greatest, but can we at least try to sort this matter out? I am not exactly pleased I’ve gotten on your ignore list. And no this is not a way to try butter you up….I just want to talk. Please.” He would end the request, the smile long gone as he gave the other a serious look. Despite how they had finally met face-to-face once more, he was more aware of the situation than the other probably gave him credit for. He was aware of what the third party here could do and aware of potential conflict between himself and the other, but even so he wasn’t going to run anymore. He was just going to deal with it and own up to whatever wrong he had done. It was the least he could do after the hell, he had probably put anyone that encountered him beforehand through..Especially this guy....
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Sharaku
Administrator
Lord of Logic
GRADE •
A+ (100)
VITALITY •
2
STRENGTH •
5
SPEED •
3
RESILIENCE •
5
STAMINA •
3
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Mirage Manipulation
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Vamp/Were Hybrid
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Tyki
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None of your business~
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Sept 26, 2019 16:30:35 GMT -6
Post by Sharaku on Sept 26, 2019 16:30:35 GMT -6
The Vamp Wolf | Crossing his arms over his chest, he'd offer the other a slightly suspicious glance. "Did you? From where I'm standing, it sounds like you came up with the idea right now. We only crossed paths by accident tonight. If you were really wanting to talk so badly, why didn't I see you approaching me about this on purpose earlier without waiting for a lucky coincidence to happen?" It was quite ambitious to pull a speech about how much you wanted to work things out, without having taken the initiative, instead just tossing it out during a random encounter. What if it didn't happen? How long would he be waiting for the guy to bring it up to him?
"That said, I didn't exactly put you on my ignore list. I'm only mirroring your own approach. You didn't bother even giving a basic notice before disappearing, and have been hiding things in general. Well, I can do that too and simply not go out of my way to communicate when not given a prompt. I'm getting tired. I'm usually seen as the one to charge in and make people talk, but it appears that it causes everyone to expect that of me and not take any chances themselves. Makes one wonder how many people I know ultimately wouldn't try to include me in their lives if I didn't push on them. Wouldn't you want to know if you were me?" He'd scoff faintly, a frown set on his face. Far too often it felt like the only way for him to keep in the loop was to literally claw at people to make them talk to him. While it was how his personality was for the most part, he didn't want that to be the standard. Relationships like that just weren't great... |
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Rika
Traveler
The Collector
GRADE •
A+
VITALITY •
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STRENGTH •
2
SPEED •
2
RESILIENCE •
5
STAMINA •
4
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Yin/Yang
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Being of Surrealism
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Deshi
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Sept 27, 2019 17:40:09 GMT -6
Post by Rika on Sept 27, 2019 17:40:09 GMT -6
The Nightmare would hear his words and look down as he shook his head, the faint smile was still there, but it wasn’t a happy one. No this smile was there due to the irony of it all. “Yes, I did pick an moment of chance to actually say this. To be frank, I had been wanting to talk to you for a long while now, but just didn’t know how to approach or even begin with what I wanted to say. No excuse for the long delay…and I know that I should’ve stopped worrying and being nervous and did this earlier, but,” he would look up at the other. “It didn’t work out that way and this happened instead. Even if it hadn’t happened like this, I would’ve approached you anyway. I was quite done fighting with myself and being afraid. Either way, random or not, I decided to take the initiative this round instead of putting it off any longer…no matter how bad or what not it looked.” Was he surprised at this reaction from the other? Not at all. In fact, he had expected something far worse than this so he was a bit relieved this was the reaction he got instead.
As for what came next, the Nightmare would close his eyes at this one as he bowed his head.
“I wasn’t trying to push you away or ignore you or give the impression I didn’t want you in my life. I also didn’t mean to make you think that I wanted you poke and prod for answers and without doing such a thing I wouldn’t say anything ever. I admit, I went about this whole matter quite wrong when it came to you. If there was anyone I should’ve been opened with about what I was doing or what has happened, it is you. You’ve seen things I’ve not shown anyone before and being my roommate, I suppose I took your concern for me and the situation too lightly. There is nothing I can say to make you know how regretful and sorry I am for doing that to you. If could take all back I would.” He would reopen his eyes. “As for your question. Yes. I would have wanted to know. In fact, I would…be upset too if the situation was reserved. I probably would’ve fussed and poked you until you told me what was happening instead of cutting off communication or mirroring what I was assuming was being ignored. It would have been rough either way…” He would pause as he looked at the grass. “I didn’t say anything because I was scared and didn’t know what to do back then. I figured if I just left without a word it would be easier...for everyone, but I see I was wrong,” he’d shake his head as he looked up at the other as he gave a frown. “I am sure took note of my horrible sleeping issues in the past and well that led me to a place I didn't expect to be. I had a serious breakdown before I left and the only option I saw going was to hospitalize myself and then from there do what I could to find a way to stabilize myself and work my way out of my hell. I won’t say all my issues have magically been cured. In fact, from this situation between us and other things, I see I still have much to work on and get straight, but…that is why I am trying to talk and make sense now. Even if I feel likw I am just babbling and not making sense at all.”
He was trying to open up and explain it all, but it was hard and a mess for him. Even though he had broken down before the other once before, he always found the communicating bit the challenge for him. All he could do is pray the other was getting what he was trying to say…He wasn't trying to do this to gain forgiveness or pity. He geniunely just wanted to fix things if it could be fixed and if not well move on to whatever was next for him in life. Though he supposed time would tell what would happen in the end.
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Sharaku
Administrator
Lord of Logic
GRADE •
A+ (100)
VITALITY •
2
STRENGTH •
5
SPEED •
3
RESILIENCE •
5
STAMINA •
3
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Mirage Manipulation
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Vamp/Were Hybrid
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Tyki
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None of your business~
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Sept 29, 2019 18:17:02 GMT -6
Post by Sharaku on Sept 29, 2019 18:17:02 GMT -6
The Vamp Wolf | This was hard. Harder than it needed to be. Not only did he not know what to say, but he also simply didn't think there was anything much he wanted to say. There was no useful response to a load of apologies in his mind. Was he supposed to nod and say that he's going to forgive? And it'd be all good then? How when he frankly did not feel one way or the other about this? It just was, and he did not find himself caring about it deeply overall.
A somewhat blank expression on his face, he'd give a sharp shrug. "It doesn't have much to do with concern. I just don't think highly of people who'd eagerly claim to want to be my friend or get along with me in whichever other way, but then casually ghost me or neglect to tell me quite important pieces of information which could affect our relationship." Given that he could have assumed all sorts of things about that disappearance, the potential effects were quite widespread. "That said, I decided not to try to prod because in my opinion, it loses all its value when I have to drag things out forcibly. If you aren't invested enough to buck up to even tell me a thing, what's the point? I'd also not want to be harassed myself if someone else wanted to know things from me, so it's simpler to just not go and be a big annoyance to a person for something I'd not even value a whole lot. It doesn't benefit me in the end."
Had it been reversed for some reason, he would likely get really pissed if the other kept fussing at him in case he did not want to tell, and honestly he would just tell the guy to fuck off. He had a limit, and if he did not want to be convinced, he just wouldn't give. Regardless, for him to go out of his way and bother someone who was not keeping him in the loop at all, he had to care enough and be interested in some way at least. He lacked the reasoning for it, and just being roommates and having basically nothing else in common was not enough. He didn't need to be chums with a dorm roommate to exist normally.
At any rate, he'd furrow his brows. "I'm afraid I do not follow what you want out of this. Should I give you a pat on the back and say it's all fine now? I don't know how I'm supposed to feel about this...I don't even think I care..." He'd look off somewhere into the distance behind the other, as if he was seemingly not focusing his sight on anything concrete at all. "It was never really about you anyway...you should probably not try so hard for this, there are better people to befriend for a person like you instead of me." |
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Rika
Traveler
The Collector
GRADE •
A+
VITALITY •
5
STRENGTH •
2
SPEED •
2
RESILIENCE •
5
STAMINA •
4
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Yin/Yang
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Being of Surrealism
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Deshi
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Sept 30, 2019 17:46:03 GMT -6
Post by Rika on Sept 30, 2019 17:46:03 GMT -6
He didn’t expect this to be easy for either of them, even less so after the mistake he had made way in the beginning. He didn’t know what would happen in the end, but he wanted to try and make this work in some fashion. And if it couldn’t be worked out? Well he was prepared to deal with that when that came to front. For now though, he would just focus on the other and the blank expression given. He would listen to the words said remaining quiet until it was all done.
At the end of it all, he felt conflicted. A part of him wanted to beat himself up for causing the situation to begin with, but the other side just wasn’t sure what to do with the information given. He was hurt in a way, but also feeling like he deserved this after all he had done to the other. His mind was so conflicted that it put him a strange state mind, making him unsure what was going to come out of his mouth when he opened it, but he opened his mouth anyway and spoke.
“I admit, I didn’t consider the impacts in the moment. Didn’t and couldn’t think it through logically. I admit I was a coward and should’ve said something. even more so because I actually want to be your friend and have a good relationship with you. But I suppose I can’t blame you for not really being concerned. After all, I have given nothing to you, but hell. I’ve given you no reason to think differently of me or see me in a good light. No reason for you to you to even try to get to know me better. I have nothing really to offer you to make working this out or trying to understand and get along better anymore appealing. I can’t even guarantee it will work out. I’ll be honest. I feel very blessed you are even talking to me right now. It more than I could have hope for," he would begin as he gave the other a sad smile before it eventually crumbled back into a serious expression. “You say dragging things out doesn’t have value for you and while agree that the tug of war shouldn’t be there at the same time, not even bothering to ask one question makes me wonder if you cared at all. I am not saying that you have to be the one to initiate everything, but I don’t always think to just spill the beans or ask what’s up right off the bat. When you started ignoring me or reflecting my behavior, I often wondered if you hate me and just rather not be bothered. It makes it harder to approach you or speak to you about things when do stuff like that. Thus why it took this long to get this out.” He would pause shaking his head a bit before continuing on. “No. I don’t want a pat on back. I don’t want lies. All I want is to speak frankly with you and see if this mess can be resolved or not. As for caring…I am not sure I understand how you couldn’t care if you took the effort to mirror my actions as if trying to send a message like you were angry with me. I know there are other people out there, but I am not interested in them right now. I am interest in you and figuring this all out. Also if it isn’t about me, then what is it about?”
He would look up at the other with a slight frown not understanding what the other meant.
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Sharaku
Administrator
Lord of Logic
GRADE •
A+ (100)
VITALITY •
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STRENGTH •
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SPEED •
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Mirage Manipulation
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Vamp/Were Hybrid
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Tyki
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None of your business~
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Oct 1, 2019 5:20:30 GMT -6
Post by Sharaku on Oct 1, 2019 5:20:30 GMT -6
The Vamp Wolf | "....and that is where you're wrong about a lot of things. You seem to look at everything from the angle that there had to be an underlying emotional reason behind all the actions. That just because I did something, it meant I had to care about it first." He'd shake his head, a slight frown on his face. "What effort? Does it truly take effort to simply not bother engaging a person? How does it mean I cared? Are you saying that if I ignore a homeless beggar, it means I care because I took the effort to ignore them? I did use an analogy to compare it to what you yourself did, but generally speaking, I wasn't doing it to purposefully remind you. It's not as if it worked to do that anyway." He just really didn't want to bother and focus so much of his time on the guy after all that. The radio silence that came as a result wasn't even that bad. Less drama in his life for a while.
"I wasn't spending my time thinking about you or pondering how much I can hurt you with the ignoring either. You just assumed it had to be me hating on you or something. I was just focusing on other things in my life in the end, rather than actively agonize over you." Like that'd have done him any good. If he were to mull over it constantly, then might as well talk to the guy and get it out there. Ignoring would have just been worse in that case. "Therein lies the problem though. It's hardly so much about you as it is about me. You could say that I'm a rather selfish person, especially compared to your style of getting so emotionally attached to and invested in even as little as unproven concepts. While I hardly paid mind to any of those things. I do most things because they're beneficial to me, or if it absolutely has to be about feelings, then it's probably to make myself feel better. You're vomiting your feelings about the situation at me, but I frankly don't get how I'm supposed to do anything about that. How you choose to feel is not my responsibility in the end."
He'd huff. "Nor why for that matter. You're right in saying that you technically seem to have little to offer me. I also don't understand why you wouldn't want a friend who actually thinks more like you and could work with you. What's the point of wasting time on me? I'm hardly ever going to understand your oversaturated emotional statements, and even less have any idea what you expect me to do about them. I can't change how you feel. Now that would be too much effort." |
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Rika
Traveler
The Collector
GRADE •
A+
VITALITY •
5
STRENGTH •
2
SPEED •
2
RESILIENCE •
5
STAMINA •
4
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Yin/Yang
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Being of Surrealism
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Deshi
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Oct 2, 2019 18:17:20 GMT -6
Post by Rika on Oct 2, 2019 18:17:20 GMT -6
The Nightmare would hear the words and frown a bit as he tried to understand what the other was saying. “It doesn’t necessarily have to be an emotional reason to it per se, but a reason yes. I guess when I look at the situation from my perspective it doesn’t make sense. For me, there would have to be some form of care there for me to be like well okay if they are going to ignore me, then I will mirror them and give them a dose of their own medicine or at least be concerned enough to ask if the person was quiet and had gone missing for a while. As a feeler over a thinker, naturally I’d think there would be some form of care there. I am not saying you have to be a friend. It's just the nature of living things to care and connect….Or at least….that is what I always thought. I suppose...there could be exceptions to the rules.” He would squint his eyes shaking his head a bit as he tried to understand.
“What you are giving me, I am not too sure how I feel about it because it is like, I was just there. Even though I have been roommates with you this long. I know we haven’t had the best relationship or even tried to be friends, but I thought maybe, especially after what you saw of me, something was there and I had made error by keeping silent. I thought that is why you ignored me, but you say you did it because it benefited you. So that begs the question…why are you are you talking to me now? How does this benefit you if you have no care at all about the situation? Would it not have been more beneficial to simply ignore me like you would that beggar on the street?
"Also this isn’t about you taking responsibility for my emotions. I don’t want you to do that. I don’t want to do anything about that or change them. You can't. No one can, but me. I just want to be able to talk and enjoy spending time with you. I understand there are others I can probably get along easier with, but I find it…beneficial to me to have an understanding and good relationship with someone I live with. Unlike you, I do care in a fashion and the connection and understanding is important to me. Whether that connection good or bad…It is important to me.”
He wasn't sure how to make the other understand, but he would try anyway. Try...
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Oct 3, 2019 14:26:58 GMT -6
Post by Sharaku on Oct 3, 2019 14:26:58 GMT -6
The Vamp Wolf | "Is it really?" His expression was somewhat flat there. "I have never called anyone a friend, and I don't particularly have any experience of feeling attached to a person that I can recall. In fact, I still cannot comprehend what drives you to be. We've barely done anything meaningful together, and just because I know some things about you, it says nothing about our relationship." He'd shrug slightly. "And I don't see the care in giving people a taste of their medicine either. I could do that to a person I just met that day if I decided they deserved said treatment. It's not because I care, but because I see it as a fitting response on my part to whatever they did. Eye for eye as they say?" Well, in some cases. Typically, he wasn't the one to carry out deeply thought out revenges, but if it was a simple enough comeback, then perhaps.
"Also no it wouldn't be more beneficial, because I can't entirely avoid you in the end. Not for as long as we share quarters or simply meet often. I'd have to speak to you at some point, so what good would it do me to actively run? While you kept quiet, I simply let things be, but I'm not going to hide away at all times just to avoid exchanging a word." Sure, he could pass a beggar and most likely never meet them again, and definitely not actively. Can't do that with a person you see daily. How would he get away from attempts to talk every time? He couldn't be bothered to act like a coward, so he'd naturally just deal with it when it came up.
He'd blank with a huff. "Important how, pray tell? Better yet, enlighten me on why it should be important to me? I don't remember you being useful or very pleasant to be around most of the time, so what is there to make me think this connection could be important for me? I'd be just fine without you, unless there is something you could offer. You've not done anything that'd make me interested just yet, besides bury me in your feelings and sentiments, which I've not found a use for yet. And I don't want to play around with you just to satisfy your desire for connection. It'd be incredibly one-sided, and only get worse." What would be the point of that? If both sides are not at least relatively interested in the other person, is it fair to keep at it? What should he be interested in...? |
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Oct 4, 2019 9:58:06 GMT -6
Post by Rika on Oct 4, 2019 9:58:06 GMT -6
Red eyes would stare up at the sky watching it shift with the passage of time, his expression blank as he listened to his “master” and this other speak to each other about things that were rather deep. It was hard to tell at the beginning if he had any interest in what was happening, but as the time passed and the conversation went to other places, the snow white skin male would sit up slightly and look over sleepily towards his “master” who seemed to be struggling with the matter before that same sleepy expression would drift towards the other, who seemed to be like a stone wall in the matter. It was an interesting contrast and something, for the moment at least, that kept his interest enough that he would watch this show instead of the sky channel above him.
That aside, the struggle was indeed real for the Nightmare as his frown only deepened the more the other talked. He would tilt his head at the other as he tried to process what was being said.
“It is typical for all things to want connection in this life. Whether it is for company, companionship or simply to continue their species on. There is always connection. We of the higher ring are particularly complex in that area because our reasons for connection are so much more vast than simple survival. Typically, when you isolate someone from society or people, they go mad because we aren’t designed to be alone and disconnected like that. It is something in our design. That is why seek out people and try to connect in some way. Even more so with those that are isolated. We inherently care.
"We don’t have to do anything meaningful to connect. Simply by interacting with another these bonds can be formed and to be frank with you knowing what you know about me, it would be saying a lot about our relationship. I don’t share that sort of stuff with just anyone. Yes, it was an odd situation that brought it about, but the fact that I even continued be that way before you meant that somewhere inside I was trusting you enough to be vulnerable before you. I don’t do that before just anyone no matter how screwed up I may feel. No it doesn’t mean we are close friends, but it means we have a connection. That is what it means for me and perhaps to anyone in a similar position. However, sometimes the ability to connect can be buried or messed up by things…” he would pause considering the situation. “So tell me, Sharaku. Why do you even question this ability of ours? What makes you think differently? Why haven’t you called anyone friend or attached to someone?” He honestly wanted to know. There was no way that this guy could not have the ability to connect or understand this, right? Wasn’t this ability to connect and feel what made the living well the living? Machines didn’t have that ability…but this guy wasn’t a machine so what was the deal? It was quite baffling and the strangeness didn’t quite end there. If anything it got stranger.
“Revenge of any sort is typically driven by hurt or anger. You want someone to feel the way you do or want to satisfy that hate or anger towards whatever did you wrong. How do you determine, then if a punishment is fitting if it is not based in emotion? Emotion that typically drives these things?” Was it impossible? No. Was he asking to try to push his point forward. No. He was simply trying to understand how this guy’s mind worked. As for the avoidance thing. Well he could understand that to a degree. They really couldn’t avoid each other if those things continued to happen, but still….How could he not pick up that the ignoring bit had bothered the Nightmare even if he hadn’t said anything until now? That was the part that made him scratch his head, but perhaps his other poking would uncover the answer to that, so for now he would accept that part with a calm nod. However that last part…
The Nightmare’s behavior would change as he gave the other a rather narrowed stare. “This isn’t a game to me. Nor some desperate plea just to satisfy some desire for connection. If you think that of my position, well then my friend, you think way too shallow of me.” He would pause as he shook his head. He’d close his eyes and took a breath before letting it out slowly. Once he was calm enough, he would look over at the other again with a calm expression. “Why is it important you ask? Well let’s examine that question. I, for one, care to know where I stand with people. It is what helps me know what to do or how behave when x, y, or z is presented. It is how I function in the simplest of terms. Of course, it is more complex than that, but we aren’t here to dive into that madness. So then, what does that mean when it comes to you? Well, the typical information I run off of to determine where I stand with another and in turn drives my behavior with said person, that is absent when it comes to you. You don’t react or behave in a typical fashion. Thus it is important to me to learn the language you run off of. I want to understand, so that I can interact better with you or people similar to you. That is the benefit and importance to me. Now what’s in it for you when I’ve offered nothing thus far except useless and uninteresting data? Well you can learn something similar from me. You can learn the language I run off of and in turn perhaps learn how to interact with me better and others that run off a similar language. Would it not be useful to have that skill in your pocket? Or do you prefer staying in your box and not even attempting to expand your horizons due to how well your way has worked thus far?”
The Nightmare would finish as he watched the other with a face devoid of emotion this time. He wasn’t putting on an act or anything of the sort, but had rather decided to try a different approach to this rather tricky situation. Would it work? Or would it simply make the situation worse? Who knew? If anything it only got his familiar a bit more curious in what may happen in the conversation, so yay there I guess.
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Oct 4, 2019 11:10:27 GMT -6
Post by Sharaku on Oct 4, 2019 11:10:27 GMT -6
The Vamp Wolf | Furrowing his brows, he'd shake his head. "You said it yourself. Our reasons are much more complex than those of beings with less intelligence and sentience. Therefore, you cannot just assume everyone is happy with such a simple reasoning. Something like 'well, we interacted so now we have a connection' is very basic and would imply we need to have a bond with and care about basically everyone we've met." Which he genuinely could not get behind. Honestly..just...no??? He had a right to choose whom he wanted to regard as a legitimate and meaningful connection, not just call it a thing for anyone he spoke to and met with a few times. "I can't see it that way. That's just not enough. I take the idea of closer connection as something that's highly valuable and not something I'd jump into readily. Who does that? Out of for example fifty people you meet, how many will you consider having an actual bond with? Are you really going to think you're connected to them all despite having no need or desire to take it any further with most of them?" He'd snort. "I'm not saying isolation is a good thing. Yes, we'd go insane if we just stared at a wall all the time and had no interactions. But interacting with people to get that fix of exchanging thoughts and ideas with another person by no means obliges you to care about those people. Their existence gives you reason to keep functioning and not get stuck inside your own mind alone...but you can always move on. You don't have to become attached to a person you spoke to." It was just so unnecessary in most cases?
"Why don't I call people friends? It simply does not feel right most of the time. I do not trust people enough to give them privileges that quickly. Nobody ever cared for me without having some ulterior motive behind it, or they just had to. Why would I believe in the nonsense that all people are inherently caring if what I see daily is how we hurt one another left and right? I lost faith in such a naive idea long ago. I don't know how you were brought up, but maybe you'd look at things less optimistically if you learned such earlier on. I wonder what was I ever supposed to think? Please, even my own mother wanted to kill me more than anything else. Do explain to me how she 'inherently cared'. I'd really like to know." And he was supposed to what...care for people he had barely even tried to trust yet? He just couldn't do it that easily. He didn't want to. He'd rather take measures to be sure first, and only then consider whether he wanted to be closer to a person.
He'd shrug. "It's not even revenge? Do people in court who condemn a criminal do it because they're angry at the person? Sometimes it's just because you want there to be some justice in the world. Is that an emotion? Well, I wouldn't know, but it certainly doesn't need to be motivated by hate or anger. I can just believe that it is a fair response to what someone did, and act on that. A personal value perhaps?" He wasn't always upset or angry when he chose to push against someone in any way. It wasn't a necessity to make one act on what they thought was right.
That said...
"Hmph. It has nothing to do with that. Although, I guess you did prove you don't understand how I work. It's not quite that I'm entirely clueless on how to interact with people like you. I've learned how to analyze behavior. In a situation where I have to, I can pretend and play the game well enough to pass most of the time. You're not someone who's ass I have a reason to kiss though, so I just don't want to present differently. After all, that is not who I am. Learning 'how' others prefer to communicate does not change you. If that is simply nothing like your own style, at the end of the day, you will only be putting on a fake mask to appease others. Is that what you think appropriate and good for fostering friendship? Do you want to see me act?" Shifting slightly, he'd put his non-bandaged arm on his hip. "If we come to the conclusion that at base level, being who we are, we cannot accept each other properly...does playing adaptation games really fix matters? I could try to understand, but is just understanding enough?" |
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Oct 7, 2019 19:16:01 GMT -6
Post by Rika on Oct 7, 2019 19:16:01 GMT -6
The Nightmare was patient enough with the conversation as he listened to the before opening his mouth.
“Connection here doesn’t automatically equal care. Connection has levels see? Everyone is connected to each other at a base level whether we’ve met or not met. It is how the world, people, animals, insects, etc. works. When we meet someone there is a connection made just not the type where you attach to them or care for them automatically. These are just the ordinary invisible webs we move along daily, so it is easy for you to just meet and go your own way. Unless you are part of some charity or something that help those in need, the care part for strangers is typically not there. We just do what we need to do and move on. What I was trying to say is the connection between you and me is not that of random strangers. In my head, it should deeper because 1) we deal with each other daily, 2) we live in the same room, and 3) I became vulnerable and stayed that way before you because…I trusted you with me…,” he would frown. “However, I am beginning to see that maybe it was one sided or I just grasped onto you quicker than you do at all. Do not get me wrong. I don’t regret what I did. Just the way it ended up. Also, I understand those types of connections – deep ones – are special and not given to just anyone. They are developed over time and with trust. I get that. And no I am not saying you just jump into them with a random stranger without any thought. You can’t when you’ve moved the bond from common to something else.” Not even he did that. He wasn’t even trying to imply that sort of connection when he began, but hopefully some of what he was saying was clearing up what he was trying to get out and get the other to understand. Or you know…he could be making it worse. He wasn’t sure anymore.
“I was brought up with a being that cared for me not because it had to, but because it wanted to and while I too see people hurting and using each other for their own gains, I know for a fact all bonds are not there for manipulation or some ulterior motive. Real bonds are good and positive. Something that all parties can benefit from. I am not here to say that everything is all beautiful. That all connections are going to be wonderful or genuine or without flaws or conflict. But…even if you’ve been hurt by them in past be and don’t want to believe in bonds not being good… Why not give someone a chance to show you differently? To show you that bonds are good and that someone can care for you being just you? I mean what do you have loose by trying?” he would ask as he considered his roommate from a different angle. This guy seemed to have had a rough life that in a way tainted the way he looked at the world. While he wasn’t sure if he could actually change the guy’s view on bonds in general, he wanted to try. Everyone deserved to be care for and loved in some way. Although not everyone got that or a chance to even taste it, he wanted to give this one that experience. Show him bonds were not as twisted as he was led to believe and that people while insane and often times baffling in what they did were not as cruel as he seemed to view them. He wanted to show him that someone could be a genuine friend…if he just let said someone in. It was strange having such a desire to take on a daunting challenge like this, but he didn’t shy away from it. No. He would embrace that desire and see what sort of mad path it would take him on.
That aside, he would consider the words about judges, but he wouldn’t be the one to answer it as his familiar surprisingly decided to speak up. “It can be seen as a personal value, but aren’t personal values an emotion of some sort? Or wanting to see justice done for that matter? They are run by a form of desire no? And desire is a type of emotion, is it not?” The familiar began in a husky voice as he sat up more swaying his devil like tail in the grass. Reaching up a hand, he would scratch behind one curled horn as he continued. “Anyway, you kind of misunderstood what he was trying to say. Don’t blame you though. That researcher data collector talk can be some confusing shit.” Rika would glare over at the familiar at that one, but he didn’t care as he yawned and stretched before continuing in his laid back tones. “What Professor was trying to offer wasn’t how to teach you to socialize nor is he asking you to kiss his ass or what not, but rather he is offering to help you understand and deal with emotions and see that bonds are not a bad thing. What he offers goes beyond basic understanding. I can tell you that alone doesn’t change much. The understanding has to move and change you for you to fully grasp it. As for your last question….”
“If we cannot accept each other properly….then that is just how it is. I know we are not going to agree on everything and I am not asking you to swallow everything I say and treat as the gospel or truth. I am not asking for you to pretend on any front. No faces. Not from you or me. I am simply asking to let me at least try to show you a different pathway than the one you currently know and see when it comes to bonds or emotions. You can take the offer or leave it. The choice is yours.” Rika finished the matter off in a calm soft way as he looked back over at the other.
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